The Writing on the Wall

Three Days Left...

2008-08-04T07:57:00.000-07:00

1. Notions of Nature, Japanese Popular Culture - Professor Momo!!

xD haha...freakin glued to the comp e+e its what I ended up with...YAYY xD
Let me see... ughhh..I hate how fast everything is slipping away from me... :( Everyday so far has been spent packing and running around etc etc... driving me effin crazy DX ..I feel like I just dont have enough time!! Tonight nate and I are taking meh brother outttttttt for his birthday xD looolll xD hes turning 15 on August 10~~ I already bought his present...but unfortudently..now Im freaking out...because Nate's birthday is this month too...I just dont know what to get my bf!! >__< AUUGH I want a really good present..but I am so out of time.... :(

im the worst girlfriend ;__; waaaaaa...

on the plus side im eating a gummi strawberry >D Mmmmm xD <3

Lets seeeee..in Three Days imma be a college student! >PP< eaaaaaghhh xD haha T_T so sooo scary sounding. x__x omg im so addicted to this new website..skype.com xD aaaughh im so add right now haha :)

IMMA TYPE SOOOONNN <3

The beginning of the Italia posts and some shit I need to get out xD

2008-07-09T04:42:00.000-07:00

WHOOO xD Im finally back home after a crazy crazy trip of europe... x__x Ive decided to make a journal entry for each of the days I was there...so it will be an ongoing project for me... on other news..I only have 26 days until I leave for college~~~ aughh x_x Its a good and scary thing I think, at least for me, haha ^-^ It's like, you feel like your ready...like your so sure that its time to get out of your house and go to be on your own..but then I am scared also...I am afraid of losing all the people I have met over the last four years...I would be so sad to lose them.....It would be horrible. I love my friends so much..and I really do care about the things we have been through. And I will even admit, and this has been bugging me..there was this stupid incident thing with a girl I had been really close to over my boyfriend..and my friends best friend dated my boyfriend freshman year.. ugh. total bullshit situation....But anyway...in the long run...it didnt have anything to do with me... but I still got dragged under. I guess what bugs me about this is that I hadn't expected my friend to act to immaturly...in fact it really made me rethink everything about her. She kind of dissapointed me...so in the end, I dont have any kind of regret for dropping her like the dipshit she was towards the end of our senior year....but I can still say I loved our time together junior year. I know people are all like, Oh if you really like her then keep being friends!! :D

...mmm.. its not even that we physically said it was over...it just is. She screwed up...and its going to take more then an "im sorry" to get that kind of screw up off. Like it was blown out of proportion so much... it was the single biggest waste of time and energy I have ever gone through. -__- to be honest...for me, my definition of a true friend is not someone who acts that way, despite knowing all the facts. Guh. I dont want to say a name, but im sure some people will know who she is...Im just so glad my friend David helped me out with this...;////; I love him. It caused so much trouble and I was so sad during this time... ugh...but I still will always remember how much fun we had our junior year...shes fun and energetic and loud xD and she always speaks her mind no matter what people think. I think its a good and bad quality about her ^-^ It means shes very raw and real..but it also means that she can say some pretty mean shiz without even realizing it, and can never understand why people are sarcastic with her and snap at her all of a sudden. She hates people who are slightly passive agressive too...she thinks that you should always be like her, just saying whatever your feeling at the moment. But maybe she needs to understand that not everyone works that way...-__- I hope she changes in college...I watched over her ass (great mental picture xD) all junior year and I think shes a great person. I just think she needs to grow up and learn some more life lessons. Im just sad the year ended that way with losing her because she suddenly wanted to act like a kid...but maybe things will change in the future? maybe not..but we will see ^-^

phew xD Im done bitching...allthough it sounds more like im trying to convince someone of what im feeling xD
haha. are you convinced? probably not xDDDD
GAAAAA xD iowq3te8w3gdsbsd

OKAY!!! ^0^ enough b.s.

xDDD Imma start the italia stuff and trying to keep a constant journal as often as I caaaaaaaann so stay ontop of this!!! ^-^ WHOOOOO~!!!

Today at 12:00 I register for courses at Eckerd... x__x im soo nervous....for Autumn Term, we have our top 5 out of 34 and then we only will get one of the five classes. whatever class we land in will be our one class for the first term, and whoever the teacher is will be our mentor for the freshman year..and then after the year is over, we can decide where we want to go, either stay or move to a new mentor!! wanna hear my five???? (SO NERVOUS!!)

1. Notions of Nature, Japanese Popular Culture - Professor Momo
2. Globalize Yourself in The New Flat World - Professor Robert Jozkowski
3. Ethics and Animal welfare - Professor Jason Sears
4. China's Health Practices and Challenges - Professor Claire Syiles to Andrew Chitick
5. Class Race and Gender in Latin American Film & Literature - Professor Yanira Angulo-Cano

Im dying to have the first classssss.. it wudl be so helpful for me to have Momo sensei.. xD When I visited Eckerd, we talked for froever and she rewuires everyone to call her Momo Sensei... xD The other course I really want is Globalize...its an intro business course on the international scale.. very helpful too x__x But ive been told at 12:00 today everyone will be clicking on one of them... im dying..they say courses can be filled up the second you get online guuhh x___x

-nervous-

haha ^-^

wish me luck~!! I think Im seeing Nate after I finish the registration...its still hard to beleive im home!! This ismy first full day in the U.S

WRITE SOON~~~

xoxox

Strawberry Summer! STREET TEAM MAGAZINE COVER!

2008-05-30T08:06:00.001-07:00

Kyaaaaaaa!! I really have no idea what to say! xD I guess..I first heard about the fact that I made a magazine cover in Japan from Nate... who heard it from jay, who lives in Tokyo xD The literal translation of this magazine is Strawberry Summer..and it is the sister magazine of Fruit(s), which is a very popular girls magazine.. >w< My street team was chossen for the nmagazine this month, for June, and from there they choose my picture!! It is so weird to me, but I am very happy that they choose me! ^-^ hee hee..they did so much light filtering on the picture, but it looks so cool @_@ jasgdjasgdaja im so hyper haha xD TOMORROW IS A BIG DAY!!!! It's the boat dabceeee...basically our prom... x__x and guess what, it's going to be rain!! ehhhhhh x___x disgusting. xD It is always such bad weather every year for the dance... x__x I dont know why.
but my schedule is absolutly insane... Because the same day is my final concert in Boston with my orchestra (ever!!!) and it is going to be on tv and the radio x__x ugh. xD and it ends so close to the time I should be leaving for the dance...so I am ready to be running around all day. hee ^-^; -meeeehh...I am sure it will be okaaaayyy... xD

jasfdasvh FWEE xD haha still happy about the magazine.. xD I guess im on three pages!? x____x so funny.. xD as mike said, "Scary; yes. But it also would be an unsurmountable ego-boost. lmao. Strawberries are your favorite fruit too; arent they?"

haha ^-^ so true.. I love straweberies x__x so good.. -drool-

BUT BUT BUT BUT o__o um um um..xD grawwrr its been so long since I last typed anythingggg.. five month anniversary on SUNDAY!!! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh!!! ^-^ I LOVE HIM!!! x 3,oooooooooooo hee hee ^-^
graawrr x__x Im so scared I will be in my dress and trip and die x__x so embarass...its a full length so im not sure if its a good idea x_-x its going to be killed now anyway because of the rain.. x__x bleh. oh well. xD

hee hee oh yeah, a few days ago, nate and I went shopping for flowers!! what are they called again?? oh yeah, (had to google them haha ^-^;) corsage and boutinerr..sounds like musketeer xD hee

ummmm...jgwejwe nate's here now..and I had no idea what to type...

~ 2 Months ~

2008-03-01T05:35:00.000-08:00

I don't want this blog to be long..but..I think I need to put this one out there...
It's been already the two months since I met Nate...It dosn't feel all that long ago..and also it feels like its been a very long time..like comfortable? Im not sure how to express it....But..So far...for me in all relationships...It's been a mistake ever time. haha ^-^ So weird to say that today though...beause Im beginning to wonder if it's not a mistake at all. I freaking love this guy xD Too early to say that? Im not sure~ So people ask me before "Oh, hey is it 'true' though?" When they say those things..I can only laugh ^-^ True love....I am not sure what that is..but I have a strong feeling it is only something you will discover over time...But in these past two months, I have never been so absolutely happy...Sunday is my big day...Im scared as hell. :/ BUT... he has been with me ever step of the way, he always says the right thing to make me stop crying..and I can't not laugh or smile when im near him >_< and yes we are stubborn~~ we disagree on a handful of issues xD but again...we have never really fought... (will we ever? O_O..one day? Ahhh.. >~<) haha ^-^ every time we do..we both get so upset xD either I end up or we both end up crying because it hurts :) I think that is the best sign....

..Because I really do care so much about this guy its scary....and I think I finally trust him more then I ever have another person besides (sometimes) my parents and very close friends...that is very big for me... and last night...we were at a capstone presentation~ and I almost faint =____x &%&^& SO PISSED OFF at myself.. DX but worse.....I scared him so bad...So I kinda pushed it yesterday...because I passed out again at the end of the night..I am not releive that Sunday is tomorrow..but Today is special. ^-^ Two month ago on today I dragged him all over boston for like..8 hours xD First Night!!!! We did everything there was to do in Boston with the exception of a duck tour and whale watch.. also we did not tour Fenway xD BUT we did like..everything else e_e so tired at the end.. I was like
-////- on the t ride home haha ^-^

For right now..I am just happy to be able to see him today... OR I HOPE SO DX It is snowing so so so bad right now >___<;;;; > >

I think we want to go try and see a movie today.. Vantage Point..

Haha ^-^ I hope it will be better then the last movie I picked to see ;____; it was Cloverfield.. DX and OH my god..there were giant spiders EVERWHERE and they BIT PEOPLE DX 'nuff said DX

&$^^ so scary xD UWA! Nate gave me a wake up call yesterday...and he told me the giant spider was in my bed DX

I thougth water was a fast wake up call..but it is nothing compared to the bugs~!!!!

Right now it is SNOWING!!!! sooo MUCH!:D I usually hate it..but this morning..it's so pretty.....It's weird to say I don't remember last night so good.. (I WASNT DRINKING DX) But I don't..I guess..I passed out like three time...it's like going to sleep but weird >/< everytime I guess I went out..he was right there...because everytime I opened my eyes he was still there haha >//< Shit i miss him now...I scared him pretty bad... but I was scared too...it's hard to tell someone it will be okay when you need someone to tell you the same thing! xD But maybe in a way..Im telling him and myself it's okay...he is the most reliable person Ive ever met...he understands what im thinking the majority of the time when I don't say anything..he's the guy I don't have to say a word to..and we can still be happy..even if all we do is sit together...it's..the nicest feeling in the world >//< it's special...and he's amazing for being so patient with me..It's just Ive been down this path so many times..it's hard to beleive that this will all work out..(relationships) But he's amazing..the best guy in the world..

Nate....
Thanks for the most happy two months ive had in years >//<

♥

First Day of Capstone!! xD AND GET TO KNOW YOUR STATE MOTTOS BETTER!! xD

2008-01-31T22:51:00.000-08:00

Chaaaa!! Today is well..its 1:52 in the a.m... I got home from glassblowing..had to do a final spanish project translation..and I just finished.. (damn you deval) ;__;

ANYWAY!! I do not have the time to make a good blog tonight ;__; I MUST SLEEEPPP

TOMORROW/TODAY IS MY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY WITH MEH BFFFF~! xD *cheer*

I am so lameee..BUT STILL HAPPY!!
haha to end this blog, (I will write one to make up hopefully later tomorrow if I can x__x )
I stole this, Get to Know Your State Motto Better
thing from Sarah's profile.. LMFAO xD JA!! xoxoxox I hope I can to sleep now -___- tireedddd--zzz...

GET TO KNOW YOUR STATE MOTTO BETTER~~!!!
Alabama

Hell Yes, We Have Electricity.

Alaska

11,623 Eskimos Can't Be Wrong!

Arizona

Yes, But It's A Dry Heat.

Arkansas

Lituracy Ain't Everythang.

California

By 30, Our Women Have More

Plastic Than Your Honda.

Colorado

Don't like the weather?

Wait five minuets.

Connecticut

Like Massachusetts , only smaller

Delaware

We Really Do Like The Chemicals In Our Water.

Florida

Ask Us About Our Grandkids

And Our Voting Skills.

Georgia

We Put The Fun In Fundamentalist Extremism.

Hawaii

Haka Tiki Mou Sha'ami Leeki Toru

(Death To Mainland Scum, Leave Your Money)

Idaho

More Than Just Potatoes...

Well, Okay, We're Not, But The Potatoes Sure Are Real Good

Illinois

Please, Don't Pronounce the "S"

Indiana

2 Billion Years Tidal Wave Free

Iowa

We Do Amazing Things With Corn

Kansas

First Of The Rectangle States

Kentucky

Five Million People;

Fifteen Last Names

Louisiana

We're Not ALL Drunk Cajun Wackos, But That's Our Tourism

Campaign.

Maine

We're Really Cold, But We Have Cheap Lobster

Maryland

If You Can Dream It, We Can Tax It

Massachusetts

Our Taxes Are Lower Than Sweden's And Our Senators Are More

Corrupt!

Michigan

First Line Of Defense From The Canadians

Minnesota

10,000 Lakes... And 10 Zillion Mosquitoes

Mississippi

Come Visit And Feel Better About Your Own State

Missouri

Your Federal Flood Relief Tax Dollars At Work

Montana

Land Of The Big Sky, The Unabomber, Right-wing

Crazies, and Honest Elections!

Nebraska

Ask About Our State Motto Contest

Nevada

Hookers and Poker!

New Hampshire

Go Away And Leave Us Alone

New Jersey

You Want A ##$%##! Motto?

I Got Yer ##$%##! Motto Right here!

New Mexico

Lizards Make Excellent Pets

New York

You Have The Right To Remain Silent,

You Have The Right To An Attorney...

And No Right To Self Defense!

North Carolina

Tobacco Is A Vegetable

North Dakota

We Really Are One Of The 50 States!

Ohio

At Least We're Not Michigan

Oklahoma

Like The Play, But No Singing

Oregon

Spotted Owl.. It's What's For Dinner

Pennsylvania

Cook With Coal

Rhode Island

We're Not REALLY An Island

South Carolina

Remember The Civil War?

Well, We Didn't Actually Surrender Yet

South Dakota

Closer Than North Dakota

Tennessee

Home of the Al Gore Invention Museum

Texas

Se Hable Ingles

Utah

Our Jesus Is Better Than Your Jesus

Vermont

Too liberal for the Kennedy's

Virginia

Who Says Government Stiffs And

Slackjaw Yokels Don't Mix?

Washington

Our Governor can out-fraud your Governor!

West Virginia

One Big Happy Family...Really!

Wisconsin

Come Cut the Cheese!

Wyoming

Where Men Are Men... And The Sheep Are Scared

Home of Brokeback Mtn.

The District of Columbia

The Work-Free Drug Place!

Give me FOOD! gyrurur~ xD Tues~Wed :3

2008-01-30T15:38:00.000-08:00

YAAA!! omfg xD UGH UGH so much stuff happens and its ALWAYS hard to find time to typeee DX

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-disgust- xD

SO! on tuesssddaaayy... i cant remember .__. ugh. xD

LMFAO BUT BUT BUT after school I was driving home and I stopped at star market cuz im an icecream hoe DX -needs her drugas- xD

AND i kinda didnt shop so healthy..BUT i was on the phone with Kelly which def made my shopping spazz so much more fun! Kelly, as promised, here's my picture of my haul~ xD haha bootay loot~

YAAAYY FOR FOOD! DX echh..i really need to think of what happened on Tuesday.. o_o i mean..it's not like it didn't happen, ya? D: Ummmm....xD haha..I dont think anything hugely amazing happened xD NATE PICKED ME until i kicked him an then he died >_<..WELL my friend said I was right, cux he squeezed me hells hard DX waaaaa.. ;__; -pain pain-

but HE IS SO NICE GUY!! DX xD I am the very lucky girl :] <3>

OKAY!! DX since I can't remember what I did on tuesday (oh so lame) DX imma tell ya what i bought! PH33R~ xD like I said icecream hoe is me...I bought...its called the Half Baked I think?
My two boy friends, Ben and Jerry haha xD I am a skank DX im cheating on my bf with icecream..BUT ITS TRUE LOVE! DX ANYWAY half baked is like..cookie dough with brownie mix X___x;;;; +drool+ and then also I got a chocolate brown mix one...PMS= chocolate ;__; so so so true...could be worse.. xD haha Urgh..when I was buying those I was thinking about the fact that my besty Z chan bought me 1 pint of (still in my freezer) Strawberry cheesecake Ben an Jerry ice cream. Is funny..when she first bought it I was like
DX EW!

BUT
ITS AMAZING!! hahah xD omg..its like..strawberries..and and vanilla, and graham crackers ;__; sooooooooooOOOooo good xD haha. Urgh and then I said goodbye to nate. ;_; he was gone today (Wednesday) because he had a college interview at Gettysberg~~ ;o; XD BUT ITS OKAY!

um UM! I dont know xD I guess im moving on to TODAY!! (WEDNESDAY!) DX I drove the car so much because I ended up going to lunch with Ai~Ai again haha :] Z gets kinda jealous when Im with her :/ it makes me kinda sad...I dont understand why she can't give me some space sometime, you know? DX ;__; but oh well...maybe someday everything will work out~~~

SO!! MOVEING ON TO TODAY AND WEDNESDAY!! (same thing Rae!?? D< XDDD)

It was kinda funny today ^__^ the day start out EARLYYYYY I drove to school and managed to get to senior parking by 8:03~ ^o^ SO EARLY!! kjasbkjcsd and thank gods because I sucked at parking haha t_t nate makes fun of me..well..actually.. everyone makes fun of my parking xD I am very very intence when I park in the morning haha xD

So the day was normal, just no Nate :/ a little sad, but so many friend so it was fine~ beside, it would be so weird if I could not handle one day away!! DX

URRGGHHH so, like, at D Block, after lunch adventure which was mad fun e_e

I had statistics.. ;__; IT WAS SO HARD!!! WAAA~ ;__;

I hate math so much!! >O its like...i dont even know ..LIKE SCHOOL IN JULY, NO CLASS!! DX (i watch too much scubs x___x;;; haha)

ANYWAY xDD In the end, I managed to get one HUGE HUGE EQUATION THINGY IN MY CALCULATOR RIGHT!! >O IT TOOK ME A WHOLE 45 MIN~~~ It was SO LONG~~ >O

TA DAA!! xD BUT..it was at a terrible price... that I finished the unsolvable equation... Dso evil, that it, in fact:

IT KILLED RAE!!! DX AHHHH!! -rae give up the ghost- haha xDD

NO! I KID!! (still alive!) xD haha BUT BUT it was close D: I FELT LIKE DYING DURING IT~ >O

;__; *&^GGU math..

i need to work on the spanish nowww..so imma head off xD HOPE YOU ENJOYED MY RANDOMNESSS!! :D MUCH LOVE TO ALL WHO READ!! <333333333333333>w<

TOMORROW is the glass day!! >O SO EXCITED!!! JHSADJSF haha xD SO READ TOMORROW!!

xoxoxox Rae :]

First Scribble [First Blog!]

2008-01-27T08:36:00.000-08:00

sakjsdkjds I can't beleive Im finally useing a blog again! It's been a long time since I last wrote in any kind of journal ish thing actually..not since last year at least, and that was because someone forced me to. xD Ugh.. >-< god of all typos. xD I guess it is a good idea in that case >.< ANYWAY!!! XD Here I am, and now I have this blog..and this is my first scribble! :3 Hmm..I guess..I can start out with some background information!! My name is Raeka (duh) xD I am a senior in high school this year!! [my last year~~!!] My birthday is on November 10, so I just turned 18 this year. My background is Mexican latina, and I am 5' 3 1/2". Tall enough to kick your butt! DX I speak three languages, and my first language is Spanish! :] Then there is English and Japanese! I recently finished all of my college applications; was accpeted into ALL the schools I applied to, received a scholorship to my top school choice and have decided where I am going!~ When I was searching for schools, I ended up with 12 I really liked, and 4 top chocies. I decided to jump start my college application process and apply early decision non binding (E.D.) to seven schools!

When my friends heard what I was doing they were like DOOD! WTF DX ALREADY??? YOUR GONNA' DIE! ...... which made me a little nervous xD UGH! I didn't die~~~! (I am writing this) But it was maybe the hardest and most stressful thing I have done in FOREVER DX To any Junior in high school who is starting the application process here is my advice: Use your time wisely. For me, my first big trip of visiting schools happened during my spring break Junior Year, which was maybe the smartest thing I did that year. The came summer...I started working a summer job again, and I thought I would have much time to do my applications during the summer, even if it was freakin; boreing. wrong. xD But here is what was important...the SAT subject test can be taken at multiple times during the year, and there are two major deadlines for most colleges, and that is the people who will be applying early, (binding and non binding contracts) and the people who will be applying regular decision. TO ALL JUNIORS AGAIN!: DX APPLY EARLY!! Yes, you will stress so bad there will be mental break downs as you try to make your Novemebr 15th deadline..but omg..you would so much rather be done before xmas, then not be...X___x beleive me, working my butt off this year was the best thing I did! Because now I can sit still while all the other seniors are running around like panic. xD Is very very nice.

Let's see...I have work (my last day!!) today from 2:oo-8:oo tonight.. and it's 12:o5 right now, so soon I will need to finish this because I have not touched hw all weekend. ;__; urrrghh...I have a giant project on Deval Patrick Due in Spanish soon ;__; It does not sound so bad to people I am sure, but the presentation is supposed to be AN ENTIRE 20 MIN LONG DX We each have one class to teach about the person in spanish..MEMORIZED and with the usage of powerpoint. ;__; ~panic panic~ waaaaa.. T-T I don't understand it at all ;_; Ummm... let's see...x-x ^$^% no idea. But I guess it will work out...I just try to avoid the project too much..it's really not such a good habit xD

Mrrggghhh...on Thursday I start my innternship/apprenticeship under a famous glass blowing dood at Diablo's Glass and Metal Work! e_e Im am so excited~~ xD

I have been glassblowing for four years now, and the last two years I have been working at Diablo's in Boston...but this time I am going to be working for my capstone project to graduate! ^-^ It's very important for seniors, but I think I am lucky to be honest...I love glassblowing, so I get to do something fun in order to graduate! xD The work is very hard, and there is no time to be a goofball when your there in the studio.. x__x The fire is so hot and you need to wear sunglasses at all times DX WHICH IS COOL! xD Rgg..it's 12:25 now!! >O xD eating a bowl of chicken and riceeee... chicken and rice, chicken and rice, oh so niceee... *sing* xD frrrhsajbdcsads~ My first blog is done I think :] Maybe I will write a new one after my first Thurs! :D I will get to know who is the second guy I am going to be under...so on Wed, I will be tested to see how much I know, and then matched up with my second instructor. The main guy I am working under is japanese, and he specializes in the hot shop with flowers of glass.. amazing!! *___* I will show you pictures soon! ^-^ hee...now time to do some spanish x__x $%^^%^