It's been already the two months since I met Nate...It dosn't feel all that long ago..and also it feels like its been a very long time..like comfortable? Im not sure how to express it....But..So far...for me in all relationships...It's been a mistake ever time. haha ^-^ So weird to say that today though...beause Im beginning to wonder if it's not a mistake at all. I freaking love this guy xD Too early to say that? Im not sure~ So people ask me before "Oh, hey is it 'true' though?" When they say those things..I can only laugh ^-^ True love....I am not sure what that is..but I have a strong feeling it is only something you will discover over time...But in these past two months, I have never been so absolutely happy...Sunday is my big day...Im scared as hell. :/ BUT... he has been with me ever step of the way, he always says the right thing to make me stop crying..and I can't not laugh or smile when im near him >_< and yes we are stubborn~~ we disagree on a handful of issues xD but again...we have never really fought... (will we ever? O_O..one day? Ahhh.. >~<) haha ^-^ every time we do..we both get so upset xD either I end up or we both end up crying because it hurts :) I think that is the best sign....
..Because I really do care so much about this guy its scary....and I think I finally trust him more then I ever have another person besides (sometimes) my parents and very close friends...that is very big for me... and last night...we were at a capstone presentation~ and I almost faint =____x &%&^& SO PISSED OFF at myself.. DX but worse.....I scared him so bad...So I kinda pushed it yesterday...because I passed out again at the end of the night..I am not releive that Sunday is tomorrow..but Today is special. ^-^ Two month ago on today I dragged him all over boston for like..8 hours xD First Night!!!! We did everything there was to do in Boston with the exception of a duck tour and whale watch.. also we did not tour Fenway xD BUT we did like..everything else e_e so tired at the end.. I was like
-////- on the t ride home haha ^-^
For right now..I am just happy to be able to see him today... OR I HOPE SO DX It is snowing so so so bad right now >___<;;;; > >
I think we want to go try and see a movie today.. Vantage Point..
Haha ^-^ I hope it will be better then the last movie I picked to see ;____; it was Cloverfield.. DX and OH my god..there were giant spiders EVERWHERE and they BIT PEOPLE DX 'nuff said DX
&$^^ so scary xD UWA! Nate gave me a wake up call yesterday...and he told me the giant spider was in my bed DX
I thougth water was a fast wake up call..but it is nothing compared to the bugs~!!!!
Right now it is SNOWING!!!! sooo MUCH!:D I usually hate it..but this morning..it's so pretty.....It's weird to say I don't remember last night so good.. (I WASNT DRINKING DX) But I don't..I guess..I passed out like three time...it's like going to sleep but weird >/< everytime I guess I went out..he was right there...because everytime I opened my eyes he was still there haha >//< Shit i miss him now...I scared him pretty bad... but I was scared too...it's hard to tell someone it will be okay when you need someone to tell you the same thing! xD But maybe in a way..Im telling him and myself it's okay...he is the most reliable person Ive ever met...he understands what im thinking the majority of the time when I don't say anything..he's the guy I don't have to say a word to..and we can still be happy..even if all we do is sit together...it's..the nicest feeling in the world >//< it's special...and he's amazing for being so patient with me..It's just Ive been down this path so many times..it's hard to beleive that this will all work out..(relationships) But he's amazing..the best guy in the world..
Nate....
Thanks for the most happy two months ive had in years >//<
♥
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Slaine... these two months have been, without a doubt, the best two months in my entire life and I hope to have many more. I don't know when you will get this, but I will always love you and I will always think about you.
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